
At the print shop, my ink-blackened hands arrange tiny metal type pieces under the hard midday light. The worn tools and frayed sleeves show the close, hot labor of an apprenticeโs day.
ํ์์ฌ๋ฆฝ ์ผ๊ธฐ
Ink Under My Nails, My Name Held Quietly Inside
1940๋
8์ 17์ผ โ Kim songhyun์ ํ๋ฃจ
1940๋
์ ์ธ๊ณํ์์ฌ๋ฆฝ 1์ผ์งธ19์ธ์ ๋
At 5:40 a.m. in the attic room above Blue-Well Alley in Gyeongseong, I woke to the wooden clack of a water carrierโs yoke and the first tram bell scraping through the humid air. Sweat had dampened my straw mat, and for several breaths I could not understand why the paper door, brass washbasin, and faded cotton bedding felt both strange and completely mine.
6:20 a.m. โ Blue-Well Alley Attic ๐
At 6:20 a.m. in my attic room above Blue-Well Alley, I folded the thin summer quilt and splashed my face from a dented brass basin. Downstairs, the landlady set out barley rice, a spoonful of salted radish, and weak soybean-paste broth that smelled of green onion. At nineteen I earn my meals as an apprentice compositor, so I wrapped my lunch tin in a faded cloth and checked that my wooden-soled shoes were still tied with sound cord. Near the alley entrance, a uniformed patrolman stood while the neighborhood headman reminded households about the new family-name records, and everyone answered too quickly. I kept my eyes on the wet stones and repeated my own name silentlyโKim Songhyunโso no order could make it disappear inside me.
๐ ์ด ์นด๋๋ ์๋ฌธ ๋์ ๊ทธ ์์ ๊ด๋ จ ๊ธฐ๋ก ๊ฒ์์ผ๋ก ์ฐ๊ฒฐ๋ฉ๋๋ค.
12:35 p.m. โ Myeongryun Print Shop ๐
At 12:35 p.m. inside Myeongryun Print Shop near Jongno, I ate cold barley rice beside the type cases while the treadle press sighed and struck like a tired animal. My fingers were black with ink, and the lead sorts felt cool despite the August heat trapped beneath the tiled roof. The foreman inspected every proof twice, because a careless phrase could bring police questions to the shop, then sent me to buy paste and wrapping paper with a few jeon. At the stationery stall, an older delivery boy murmured that young men in Chuncheon had been speaking among farmers about rebuilding our culture and keeping a free spirit alive. He gave no names, and I asked none; we both turned at the jingle of a bicycle bell as if we had only discussed the weather. Back at the press, I set ordinary shop notices, but each piece of type seemed to carry the weight of words that could not safely be printed.
๐ ์ด ์นด๋๋ ์๋ฌธ ๋์ ๊ทธ ์์ ๊ด๋ จ ๊ธฐ๋ก ๊ฒ์์ผ๋ก ์ฐ๊ฒฐ๋ฉ๋๋ค.
7:10 p.m. โ Moon-Jar Well Courtyard ๐
At 7:10 p.m. in the Moon-Jar Well courtyard behind my lodging, I drew up a bucket while cicadas rasped from the persimmon tree and supper smoke drifted between the eaves. A student lodger named Minjae sat nearby mending the strap of his canvas satchel, and I told him only that I had heard people elsewhere were still reading forbidden ideas and speaking carefully to farmers. He warned me that even walls had ears, then pushed half a yellow melon toward me with a crooked smile. We ate from the same chipped bowl as the last tram rattled beyond the alley, its windows glowing through the dusk. In my room afterward, I rubbed the ink from my hands with laundry soap, but a dark crescent remained beneath each nail. Before putting out the kerosene lamp, I wrote my name once on a scrap, memorized the motion of every stroke, and burned the paper over the basin.
๐ ์ด ์นด๋๋ ์๋ฌธ ๋์ ๊ทธ ์์ ๊ด๋ จ ๊ธฐ๋ก ๊ฒ์์ผ๋ก ์ฐ๊ฒฐ๋ฉ๋๋ค.
Nationalist thought continued to circulate in 1940 โ
Today I heard, only as a guarded whisper, that young people in the Chuncheon area were encouraging farmers to preserve national consciousness and rebuild their culture. The news made me afraid, but it also left a small, steady warmth in my chest.
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์ด ์ผ๊ธฐ๋ ์ญ์ฌ ๊ธฐ๋ก๊ณผ ์๋ ๊ณ ์ฆ์ ๋ฐํ์ผ๋ก ํ ์ฐฝ์ ์คํ ๋ฆฌ์
๋๋ค. ๊ธฐ๋ก์ด ํ๋ณด๋ ์ฌ๊ฑด์ ์๋ฌธ ๋งํฌ๋ก ์ฐ๊ฒฐ๋๋ฉฐ, ๊ธฐ๋ก์ด ๋จ์ ์์ง ์์ ์๋๋ ๊ณ ์ฆ์ ๊ธฐ๋ฐํ ์์์ผ๋ก ์ฌ๊ตฌ์ฑ๋ฉ๋๋ค.